=-+.e n d/ o f/ t h a/ r o a d.+-=

2005-04-19T19:11:00.001+08:00

for all of you who have been taggin my blog;
seriously, forget it.
you guys dun even have tha friggin GUTS to put ur name there.
i mean, seriously.
all you know how ta do is put ppl down.
without leaving your name;
u tell me i`m worthless,
all i care about is my popularity and reputation.
and how about you?
you dun even leave ur name.
if you hated me so much, you wouldn`t care that i know how you feel abt me.
so seriously stop;
and get a life.
at least i`m true to myself.
if you hate me, really really hate me,
you wouldn`t bother to come to my blog;
read my entries;
and leave a tag.
so seriously piss off.
and please leave me alone.
and for all of those who have been sticking up for me;
like NIC!
omg.
u think i dun know itz you.
HAHAH. x)
thank you.
and my baby;
i know it`s you too!
teehee.
x)
i love you johan;
i dun care what you guys think.
leave us alone.
((:

___stupidfool.

2005-04-14T17:19:00.000+08:00

you know;
i dun get it.
i dun get people who judge you, when they dun even know you.
i wanted to find friends;
friends so true,
friends whom you know will be there for you throughout.
and i`ve only found four.
just four.
i wanted genuinity;
people who dun hide behind facades.
and for those who say;
i hate hypocrites;
it just doesn`t make sense cuz most of the time,
we ARE hypocrites.
isn`t secretly hating someone inside hypocrisy?
isn`t being so sugary sweet to a person`s face,
only to turn around and roll your eyes,
TOTAL hypocrisy?
and what about those people who go,
oh, i dun like this and that about you,
oh MY fucking GOD, she is SUCHHHH a bitch.
or a whore.
or a slut.
or a poser.
and then laugh in that lil clique u have;
and then make a huge fuss about it when it happens to you.
and then curse that person some more;
two-faced.
stupid bitch.
fool.
don`t say smth; don`t say anything at all;
don`t even bring someone down if you know that how u`re feeling is contrary;
because in the end,
you`re gonna be the one losing out.
all i wanted was a friend to walk me down these halls of misery in life;
just tell me why,
i dun understand.

_______ahappyapriltwelthtoyou.

2005-04-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

haven`t blogged in forever;
spring break`s over.
doesn`t feel right;
went by way too fast.
back in school now, tmr`s a wednesday.
thursday`s free dress.
i think i`ll just skip tmr.
ali`s got the flu.
pauline`s got seven ulcers.
joh`s caught the flu.
he passed it to me;
and i have FOUR ulcers.
torment, i tell you.
i drink, it stings.
i eat, it stings.
i dun touch it at all, it still stings.
my goodness.
saki was here the whole week of my spring break;
so we went shopping and all that;
was so tired.
then four days; the last four days of spring break;
went down to sg.
met with my one precious fren who stuck by me throughout.
teehee.
sunday; went out with johan.
watched be cool.
DAMN. that show really makes christina milian look like some goddess.
i gotta admit; she IS pretty.
and i love her clothes. (:
school was okay;
as usual.
got homework already.
went over to my baby`s house after school today;
and went home just in time for dinner.
nothing much left to say;
except
i`m johan`s powerpuff girl!
teehee.
i love you baby.

_______happyaprilfools.

2005-04-01T01:59:00.000+08:00

ever feel let down?
ever feel like u have so much hate that a scream won`t give u release?
sometimes when you think that u can really trust someone,
u find out u can`t.
and there are other times when u meet someone,
and u realise,
that, right away...
people like them can NOT be trusted.
and that kinda person i met; was you.
you showed me what it was to hate,
u showed me what it was to truly hate someone for a reason.
oh puh-lease darling.
u piss me off.
turning ppl against each other; is that all u think of doing?
thinking everyone`s staring at ur bf?
please, there are tons of guys out there to look at.
what u don`t know is, what ppl think of you.
outside, nice. inside, well.
let`s just say itz the total fuhreakinn opposite.
unlike you, i dun care abt popularity.
i dun care abt ppl liking me,
and ppl liking my clothes or whatever.
i have ONE life to live.
and i`m gonna live it. well.
everything that happens, u hafta be involved.
i wanted to give u a chance, to prove everyone wrong.
but guess what?
i became a victim.
i became a victim of the words u never thot of before spitting them out.
dun say that happened to you too, from me.
cuz it`s total BULLSHIT.
what have i done to you?
nothing.
what have i done to make you do all this to me?
oh yeah,
i bet you`d say itz cuz ppl around u are hurting cuz of me.
everything is CUZ OF ME.
i cried that nite.
i cried cuz it hurt so so bad.
so goddamn bad.
but i`m not gonna give u the credit,
cuz it just made me stronger.
it made us both; stronger.
and now that i know that there are ppl like you out there;
in this cruel world.
it just ruins everythin.
but i dun care.
it`s my life, i`m gonna live it.
i`m gonna live ma life the farthest i can get away from you as possible.
cuz i dun need ppl like you.
i want honest, genuine ppl.
ppl who can go past first impressions,
and fake reputations.
fake frenships, and hardcore backstabbing.
and i`ve found them.
i`ve found those frens.
and u`re defintely NOT on my list.
making someone that has known me longer than you, hate me.
is oh-so-bad.
tellling her that I, of all people made her hate her is even worst.
u know what u said that night at your own house,
when she was being emo.
and girl, u know i`m talking abt you.
who was there wen u just broke down?
who was there to give u advice?
who was there to pay for your cabs?
who was there wen ur mom wasn`t home and u were feeling bored?
who was there when u wanted to go swimming?
who was there to let u show off ur foos skills?
who was there with you throughout everything?
who was there to tell you not to care abt what ppl think?
who was there to tell you that wat was done, was done?
who was there to tell you to take things one day at a time?
who promised you that she`ll be there for you,
no matter what?
it was me.
now you tell me.
what exactly do i gain, from getting ppl to hate you?
nothing.
i dun even hang out at brewz anymore.
i have new frens, frens i know will be there for me.
i dun gain anything from making ppl hate you.
think abt that.
and thanks for everything u said,
thanks for what everyone said.
yes, it hurt.
but u know what?
u can just kiss my ass.

p.s* happy april fools! (:

____hmmph.

2005-03-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

had a wonderful week.
(:
johan should know why.
teehee.
saki`s comin tmr evening.
can`t wait to see my tomato again.
i miss her so much.
spring break`s in four days.
can`t wait.
can`t wait for my school-less days.
it`s gonna be awesome.
at home alone, waiting for mommy to come pick me up.
stupid la.
she made me cancel shopping with johan and his mom ;
cuz she said her frens are coming from singapore.
so i said okay without showing any bitchiness;
teehee.
and now i`m alone at home.
EH!
they`re back.
with food.
i`m hungry.
toodles.

---boobo0.

2005-03-23T17:42:00.000+08:00

and i ; i dun wanna speak these words ;

cuz i ;

i dun wanna make things ; any worse .

alohaaloo.

haha . umm . i just made that up .

haven`t blogged in forever ;

school`s been great ,

not to mention it`s almost over .

this week is the best .

reports out on monday .

did pretty well .

bronze honor roll !

woohoo ! ((:

unlike pauline , SILVER .

HMMPH .

i`ll get gold by the end of this school year . TEEHEE . x)

half days, from tuesday to thursdays,

and free dress day friday . (:

next monday and tuesdays are full days ,

but it wudn`t be too bad .

because by then , i`d have saki with me . (:

*beamms- .

and by tuesday night , it`s havocc .

supergoddessed havocc .

school`s out !

[[:

not much happened .

been hanging alot with the brewsters now .

been feeling thaa stress of school lately ;

or maybe cuz i thinkk too much .

anyways , i`m off .

toodles .

_______breakaway .

2005-03-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

outta the darkness and into the sun ;

nine hours and forty minutes into the night ;

this weekend was one of the best . (:

felt like it could last .

friday --

school ended ; finally .

met up with johan ;

sammie and brandon ;

ali .

and off to mv .

chilled in brewball for awhile ;

foosing til we were sick of it ;

drove off to the curve ;

wanted to go to redbox ; changed our minds .

met john and winnie there ;

around midnite ; it was off to kl .

clubclubclub our asses off . (:

music was good ; people could be better .

haha , if you know what i mean .

then winnie and i had this lil drink down thing ;

and aliiieeeeee and sammmieee got drunk ;

was damn funny . (:

then it was off to my baby`s house .

saturday ;

baby dropped me home from his house .

got ready for newsong .

hadta see that stupid amanda`s face again .

i swear ; i dunno what her problem is .

anyways , next week`s newsong camp .

i dun think i`m gonna go .

and i dun think mj wants ta go too .

oh well , we`ll see how it goes .

itz 953 , and my doorbell is ringing .

i wonder what the heck my parents are up to .

teehee .

johan just called .

after newsong ;

joh picked me up .

went to mv again .

met pauline , de , and the usual there la .

elle was there too .

hung around there ;

then went back to sammie`s house .

stayed there till like five in the morning ?

was drinking , talkin and all .

just hanging around .

then went back to my baby`s house .

woke up ;

then home .

saki called me today ; around six .

to tell me all the flight details and all .

i`ll be seein her in like two fuhriggin weeks.

and i`m so excited is a bit of an understatement ;

teehee .

on tha phone now .

tata to you all .

____-sakibabye.

2005-03-10T17:39:00.000+08:00

so nic left .
he left that night .
was it a tuesday night ?
i saw him the morning before i went to school ;
he came after driving around kayelle , for the whole night .
he din sleep .
i`m sorry that hadta happen the night before you left .
it was all my fault .

today .

listening to tiger lily .

it`s such a nice song ,

it`s close to paradise , with the end surely nearrrr .

teehee .

ktv tmr night , friday`s finally here .

i know the poem i wrote last night sucks .

it`s unfinished .

i`ve been so busy these few days with school and everything ,

it wears me out .

time passes , and now i really hafta depend on my clinique concealer .

teehee .

tha more life passes me by , the more i dun understand it .

you have no control over it .

been pretty emo these few days ,

but it`s gettin better .

the words `perfect life` don`t exist in my dictionary .

march26th .

saki`s comin home .

i can`t wait to see her .

it`s been so long .

nobody gets me like you do .

you mean so much to me .

sighh .

school was alright today .

tired as usual .

not much to say .

cept ,

i miss you saki .

i love you johan .

and

i can`t wait for march26th. two weeks more .

love.?

2005-03-08T15:42:00.000+08:00

it`s like i can`t even ,
won`t even
don`t even wanna think about
anything
anymore .
in tha face of cruelty , i am trashed and stricken .
cohesing is possible ,
but why do i strive ?
there`s no reason , there`s no lesson ,
i strive for nothing ,
only to lose my soul , my sanity .
ur words , they burn right through me .
sting right through me ,
so much deeper than you think .
i turn away , tell myself it`s okay .
i cringe with the slight twist of my heel ,
as i walk down , tears threatening to spill ,
to enter the world from behind my eyes .
i hear them , replaying over and over again ,
the pain excruciates my soul .
i get no release , not through the whispers of prayers ,
not through the crimson that trickles down ,
tell me you hear my cries , and then i find estacy in your arms ,
god tell me that they dun just hit the ceiling ,
that one day you`ll stop this horrible feeling .
take me higher , away from this place .
away from the emptiness that grinds my soul .
oh , the search for true love ,
so genuine like the sun`s rays kissing my skin .
emeciated , like my heart ceases to beat .
when will i find true love`s confession ?

______shinyDISCOballs . (:

2005-03-04T07:53:00.000+08:00

six forty in tha morning .
snoozed til seven .
finished by 740,
hafta be in school by eight .
so yeah .
i`ve got time to waste . (:
seasac was fun yesterday .
we learnt this like malay dance , and we`re still in tha process .
i just realised wen i got home before going to midvalley ,
that i was actually SO tired .
he made us do it over and over again .
then if was supposed to end at fivethirty, but he kept us in til six ;
which meant that it was a sneak preview thingy because the art and drama students ;
they were already strolling it .
we were all so damn embarrassed .
and his stupid frens were perving on us . teehee .
seven fifty now .
should be leaving by now .
midvalley was fun ;
we hadta go BOWLING .
BOWLING for my ass' sake.
haha.
but it was fun , i havta admit .
aaron , me , cheryl , naz , kim , nanni and hmm . yeah .
that`s abt it .
we went home together .
and it was just so fun .
we were laughing our lungss out ,
one of those moments i`ll never forget . (:
classof08 ; love you .

___godsendmeanangel;

2005-02-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

haven`t blogged in forever ;
been totally MIA .
hehe .
my eye`s all swelled up today .
staying home and finishing my shitloads of hw ,
while thinking of aaron having fun in penang ,
and johan with uzzy and all .
he`s gonna pierce his eyebrow .
my my , so sexy .
i love m nose piercing . (:
anyways , yeah .
life`s been okay , everything`s good .
and on monday , it`s one month .
went through so much in just one month.
time just whizzes by .
yesterday was fun tho.
spent the whole day out ,
mv as usual , then ou to eat .
elle, me, my baby, mj and uzzy.
was pretty damn fun . (:
was gonna get a tattoo done, but that guy wasn`t there .
hmmph.
hehe.
tonsaa pics on my comp , slowing down everything .
picture frenzy yesterday .
mj`s cam has this special effect thingy that looks damn nice .
so we took and took , and took and took . and took somemore . (:
heehee .
talking to my baby on tha phone now .
he`s gonna do it now .
teehee .
have this essay for english to do ; on farewell to manzanar .
hmmph .
oh well .
i feel satisfied that i`ve blogged. (:
meeheehee . gonna go now .
toodledoos.

____i`m in LOVE //

2005-02-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

what can i say ?
i`m in loveeeee <33*
oh so addicted .
haha .
(:
i have lots ta say , all i lack is time time time !
i need more time .
oh , and sleep too .
so i shall blog later .
or sumfin .

____notforlong.

2005-02-10T01:00:00.000+08:00

in singapore .
wasn't so bad , the drive down , i mean .
probably cuz everyone already left . (:
happy chinese new year everyone , gong xi fa cai !
hehe .
hoping you guys all get filthy rich , yeah .

tuesday .
did i blog tha day before ?
probably did .
tuesday was a school day , but mom was nice ,
she let me skip .
it was tha reunion dinner night .
usually i eat alot , but i din really have tha appetite . (:
after that , it was off to bangsar .
saw lotsa ppl from school .
was quite alotta fun .
cept i was gone . with julia .
thanks megan and chrissie . (:
for all tha love you showed . HAHA .
juli almost passed out , so someone took her home .
had a great time , everyone was gettin dirty , and it was just great .
chrissie dropped me home .
and that was it . (:
i almost lost smth so precious that night .
but it`s all good now .
i love you so much . always .

wednesday .
off to singapore , i go . (:
msged ppl on the way down , and listened to music .
and of course , caught up with some beauty sleep .
hehe .
got down to singapore , and it was off to my uncle`s house .
first rown of money collecting .
hehe , this girl here is a huge moneyface .
food was good , money was even better .
haha .
okay , enough of that .
now i`m home ,
on a just-turned thursday morning at exactly 1222am , blogging .
(:
and i think i better go .
all these late nights are taking its toll on me .
-yawwnn .
nite peoples.

___lurvee . <33

2005-02-07T17:07:00.000+08:00

(:
true`s stuck in my head .
i love that song .
and i love this purple.
it`s so yummy .
school was fun today ;
got my progress report card back .
wasn`t too bad . (:
i`m off .
ta get my lv !
woooootttt wooooottt .

three more days till he comes home .

___justFOURmore .

2005-02-06T17:16:00.000+08:00

heyy .
working on my asian studies project wiv aaron ,
he`s been here ever since like ,
eleven ?
hur .
and itz almost five .
i still haven`t done my asian studies project .
bleahh . ):
he might be stayin for dinner .
yippees ! (:
yesterday was pretty fun ,
out with juli again .
went to get tha rings .
everyone said it was nice .
it is , actually .
HAHA . (:
dopped by shermaine`s party before that .
met darren , mj and ppl there .
left early , din come back .
feel so bad .
sorry shermaine .
went off to mv ,
tha usual ppl were there .
saw gab !
(: was looking good .
headed off to hartamas for aliff`s party .
met jes .
haven seen him in forever ,
that was good .
after ,
headed off ta drink ,
and it was home for me after awhile .
was so friggin tired .
talked on tha phone tha whole of last night . (;
can`t believe there`s school tmr .
* sighh -.
but it`s only monday and tuesday ,
so it`s all good .
goin soon ta get my tattoo done ,
(:
we`ve finally finished our asian studies crap .
and it was pretty fun doing it ,
altho aaron was practically gettin on my nerves every second .
hehe .
chinese new year`s coming .
and this huge moneyface here is waiting for her big bucks .
heh .
(:
aiight , i`m gonna go .
hope u guys all have a great timee .

four more days till jo comes home .

___en love ; <3 *

2005-02-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

you and me ;

____ `en love ; <3

life`s worth it , when you`re here with me .

i hardly blog on a daily basis anymore .
just dun have tha time .
-frowns .
oh well .
life`s still been good ,
except for certain things ,
but it`s okay .
i`m gonna get thru it . (:
aaron came over today to do tha asian studies project .
stayed til around fiveish ,
and he went home .
school was pretty fun today .
especially spanish , laughed too much .
just got off tha phone with johan and pendek .
might be comin over later .
tmr`s a friday , thank god .
finally .
took forever for that day to come .
tues was a holiday ,
so slept over at juli`s monday night .
went out as usual with tha usual ppl ,
and came home around oneish .
was pretty fun . (:
so kinky . so stinky .
HAHA . (x
tuesday was a day spent lazing around , doing nothing .
went to mv later on .
thatz it .
wednesday and thursday were just regular school days ,
cept juli and i visited va .
since johan was there .
haha .
i know , what losers .
we were just sitting around , watching american idol ,
while everyone else was like , playing cs .
HAHA .
(:
today was a happy day .
everyone left for seasac today .
regret regret regret .
someone just shoot me already .
hehe .
i`m off . (:
toodles .

[:

2005-01-30T13:12:00.000+08:00

[:
i haven`t blogged in forever .
been pretty busy , having fun .
being busy takes my mind off alotta things ,
things that i shouldn`t even be wasting my time on ,
but now that i`m all settled and happy ,
i guess it`s time ta take off all tha havoc i`ve been causing .
heh . (:
life`s STILL been treating me good ,
and i hope you guys can say that for urself too . (:
monday`s supposed ta be a holiday ,
but now it`s switched to tuesday instead .
was whinin and whining to juli ,
but now it`s all good . (:
fri was farrah`s last day here in kayelle ,
so juli and i headed off ta shadows .
saw a whole bunch of ppl from school and outta school there .
it was pretty fun , packed and everything .
tha music was good , everyone was tipsy .
and a whole lotta dirty dancing goin on . (:
poor juli got bored tho .
so we left kinda early .
mom picked her up ,
and johan sent me home .
with a whole bunch of other ppl .
pendek , uzz , opie , ali ..
everyone .
and me .
hahah .
i was like so squished in tha car ,
but it was worst for johan , i was on his lap . -.-
no , actually that smiley chud be changed to (;
haha .
he`s such a sweetie .
- beams .
i dunno if i should post it to tha world ,
since there are motherfuckers reading my blog .
but since word gets around so fast here ,
u guys wud probably find out in no time . (:
so that`s my friday night .
saturday ?
i went for newsong .
i have no idea what i was doing there .
i mean .
i dun fit in there .
everyone`s just so diff .
this guy was saying stuff abt how some girls now ;
wear their jeans so low , and wear makeup and everything ,
and this whole row of girls just turned around looked at me .
...
i felt like just kickin myself in tha guts man .
or maybe , kicking them .
what the heck is wrong with them ?
this is who i am ; deal with it .
i shud just stop going altogether , right ?
there`s more to me than tha way i look ,
but nobody there seems ta see that .
mj`s right .
she was right all along .
nuff said .
moving on .
*he came all tha way ta see me at four in tha morning .
and he took it so well .
(:
perfect , i tell you , perfect .
hehe .
today`s just a lazy sunday ,
waiting for him to pick me up ,
he`s not even up yet .
i got hw to do . ):
haiiiiyooo la .
i feel so bad for shyam .
shit .
i`m off .

____whoNEEDSthaWORLDwhenWE`VEgotTHATbest ?

2005-01-26T18:38:00.000+08:00

i so dun get teachers sometimes .
we hadta do this monologue for english , right ?
and i spent SO much time on it ,
made it 500 words .
and i perfected it and everything ,
and then she says itz too 'generalised' .
wow , thanks alot , mrs. ash .
so here i am ,
doing it all over again .
whining and whining . [:
wow , waddya know .
it`s already wednesday today ,
and soon it`ll be friday ,
tha best day of my whole entire week .
and there`s a certain someone who`s trying ta make my life worst ,
like it`s not bad enough alreadyy .
i mean , seriously .
because i wanna get good grades ?
because i have frens outside school ?
because i hang with juli now ?
because i stole ---- away from you ?
it`s either you have a serious inferiority complex ,
or u`re just plain weird .
if u wanna hate me , then do it out in tha open .
if u have smth ta say abt me ,
then say it to my face .
bitching and getting ppl to hate someone is like ,
so last season .
and thank you for making me tha center of ur attention .
you know ,
i really dun care anymore .
why did i even use to ?
it`s seriously no big deal .
why did i waste myself trying ta be nothing but nice to you ?
wen i shud`ve known that this wud be what i`d get in return ?
you use people , treat them like queens and kings wen u need smth ,
but then just throw them away , chuck them aside ,
wen u figure u want smth else .
and yes , tha ppl u`ve done that to ,
know that for themselves .
so if u`re thinking everyone loves ur fat ass ,
think again .
i should be thanking you though ,
you`ve pointed out my true friends .
[:
alrightyys .
enough bitching for one entry .
school was pretty fun today .
especially spanish .
yes , gustavo got a lil pissed that we were late ,
but he got over it .
i mean , he even gave tha whole class this peanut cookies .
it was pretty good , mind you .
(:
was supposed to go watch saw with juli , uzzaam and ppl today .
but we all had piles of hw ta do .
so that`s off til tmr .
life`s been treating me good so far ,
and saki , cheryl , aaron and naz .
i LOVE you ta bits , from tha bottom of my heart .

_aaron_ you`ve made school life for me so much easier , and you know i love you for that , and for so many other reasons . you`ve become one of tha only ppl in tha whole school i could trust , and you made sure i was okay all tha time , always looking out for me . u`ve made me laugh til my stomach hurt and tears were rolling down my cheeks , and the funnest times in school that are etched in my memory would definitely include you in . your originality just intriuges me (nah , not really . HAHA . jk .) and see ? i told you you`d eventually be better than me . you never failed to let me link my arm thru urs , and you never stayed mad , no matter how much i messed up . and with all tha fos and smartconnexion or however u spell that on , i`d hang with you . i was only messing la . (: you make me so happy , and ilu so so much .

_cheryl_ we`ve come quite a long way into this . we`ve had our fights and differences , but tell me a pair of best frens who have never fought in their entire frenship , and i`ll gladly prove to you they`re liars . (: all those fights have only brought us closer . i know we`ve always had that problem with trust , but we both know now that it`s alright , and lookie what we have here ! heh . god , come to think of it , i love you so much girl . thanks for sticking by me this whole year , always protecting me from gettin hurt . you`ve always been my ditzy pixie , (: and tha one whose bimboticness brought a smile to my face . you`ve always accepted me no matter what , and yes , even tho u`re such a ditzy pig , u`ve got some values i`m trying ta learn . i`m trying , i`m trying ! heh . babes , i love you so seriously mucho . [:

_naz_ guyyyyfffrrriiieeennndddd . tha most sarcastic one out of us all . thank you for all those times you used ur hand to roll my elbow , or slapped me on my back , or pinched me , and then huggin me and saying u`re sorry wen i got pissed . haha . it felt pretty disgusting , though , wen ya use ur hand to roll my elbow . (: thank you for all tha hugs u`ve headed my way , and all tha kisses too . your facial expressions never fail to make me laugh . just try not to get so worked up wen u dun get the edge in tha canteen and in asian studies , okay ? (: u`re my bitching partner , and i love yoouuuuu . by the way , i think jojo is UGGGLLYY . (; heh . just messing . see you baby . lovelove .

_saki_ last , but definitely not tha least , sakipoo . we`ve come a long way , ever since seventh grade , wen we hated each other`s guts . man , look at where we are now . my whole life`s practically in your hands , and i love you tha most . you know you love me too . (; HAHA . you`ve always been tha person i knew i could go to for everything . what we have , babe , i wouldn`t trade it for tha world . you`re tha sister i`ve never had , and GAWDD , how much do i love you ?! haha . we`ve had our ahem , disagreements ; that got abit outta hand at times , but yes , i know u can`t live without me . LOL . (: life without u here in emkiss , kayelle just sucks , but i`ve learnt ta deal . and i know even though we`re thousands of miles apart , u`re still tha saki i always knew , tha one that still continues ta be there for me . i`ve got ur back , saki , always . and no matter what happens , whatever we become , no matter how far we are , u`ll always be my best friend . always .

____FUCKoffERNEST

2005-01-24T16:51:00.000+08:00

[:
pooface tiffy , ryanpoo .
lovelovelove .
<33
so sugary , so sweet .
hello hello .
back from school , alone at home .
shud really be doin my monologue for english ,
but i really couldn`t be bothered .
a 500 word poem ?
haha .
sounds fun to me .
i love poems .
[:
school was alright today ,
we had assembly ,
and it was off to asian studies .
we had a quiz ?
i din even know .
but it was easy enough , so it`s not so bad .
school pretty much passed me by .
it was quite alotta fun .
lazing around tha whole day mostly .
cny`s coming , february 9th .
am i right ?
somwhere close .
wud be back down in singapore .
[[:
money money money !
heh .
there`s smth wrong with my blog .
i need lynnie !
she always fixes my blog`s problemos .
hehe . x)
as u can see ,
there are strikes on tha lil linkie thingies .
i need them off .
but i can`t !
they just suddenly appeared , okay .
ROAR .
i`m gonna go ,
there`s a rumbly in my tummy .
hungry for a kiwi !

___makeSOMEnoise !

2005-01-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish i could just disappear .
just disappear into smth ,
go nowhere ,
feel nothing .
but then again ,
my wishes never come true .
it`s odd for me to be saying this ,
but i miss juli .
)':
i just called dominoes .
they`re coming soon .
in half an hour or smth .
so hungry .
yeah , i know i`m pilin on tha calories ,
but hu cares .
i`m hungry .
(:
went for newsong today .
pretty fun .
saw becky`boo .
haven`t seen her in ages .
pretty as ever , that girll .
haha .
din do much .
probably goin ta red chamber later .
but then again , i`m so lazy .
and by tha way ,

happy birthday uzzaam !

(: hehe .

school starts monday again .

i hate school .

i know everyone says that ,

but gawdd .

i hate it so bad .

pointless crap .

sighsigh .

i think i`m just gonna stay home tonite ,

and stuff my face with pizza ,

watch a couple movies ,

and call mj over or smth .

heh .

it`s only 943peeam anyways .

can`t wait for spring break .

saki`s coming !

woohoo .

everyone make some noiiiissseee . (:

haha .

aiight .

nessa . out .

_____funtastic .

2005-01-21T16:14:00.000+08:00

one word to describe last night .
fun .
actually i`ve thought of two more .
fantastic .
amazing .
hahah . (:
it was great .
spent tha whole day with juli .
school ended at three .
and i have no school today ,
so i`m sitting at home now , lazing around ,
chatting and bloggin .
probably going to mv to meet ali , shyam , uzzaam , and juli .
yesterday was uber fun man .
met juli . around fiveish .
went to mm just to get her top .
but that silly girl din get it in the end .
so off to players we went .
after that , we hadta rush off ta damansara ,
where we chilled for awhile .
sat and just chatted with my lil log , shyam and uzzaam .
after that ,
headed to bangsar ta club .
well , me and juli , for that matter .
the rest of tha guys were just hangin around .
went ta shadows .
friggin empty .
saw iylia . rina . denis . steve . sofia . lots more ,
plus this new girl in tenth grade .
pretty good dancers .
iylia got us drinks .
(:
he`s too nice la .
hung around there ,
and got out around oneish .
to find only uzzaam there waiting for us .
found a cab for both of us drunk bitches ,
and went back ta wait for the rest of tha guys .
an angel la .
haha .
julia was so funny tho .
u know those poster companies ?
she called tha number and started talking to the answerng machine
at one in the morning .
and we were like , wtf .
and she`s like , i call them everynight just to talk .
i know it doesn`t sound too funny ,
but i was practically laughing my lungs out .
went for lunch with my rents and their company today .
at shangri-la .
i swear , i practically died there ,
despite my hangover ,
cuz they have a FRIGGIN CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN .
and strawberries lined up around it .
okay , i practically fainted ,
stuffing my face with it .
haha . (:
i`m a happy girl .
and i love you julia , u stupid BOULDER .
haha .
bye !

i`m not gonna waste my time on you .

can`t believe what i saw in you ,

how cud i have been so blind ,

u`re the biggest jerk of all time .

___ihateYOUernest .

2005-01-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

it was a beautiful let down , when i crashed and burned .
when i found myself , alone and hurt .
it was a beuatiful let down ,
tha day i knew ,
all tha riches this world hadta offer
would never do .
i love switchfoot . (:
i miss shyam . ):
i`m feeling better , it`s a brand new day .
but that bitch can just burn , for all i care .
i watched a walk ta remember just now .
and yes .
i cried AGAIN .
damn .
probably cuz i know , i just know
guys like that never exist .
and gawdd , if they do ,
u wudn`t need anything else .
so yeah , whatever .
no school on friday !
woohoo .
school was pretty fun today .
gets my mind off things that aren`t even worth thinking abt .

there`s a song that`s inside , my soul .

it`s tha one that i`ve tried , ta write over and over again .

i`m awake in tha infinite cold ,

but u sing to me over and over again .

so i lay my head back down ,

and i lift , my hands and pray ,

to be only Yours ,

i pray to be only Yours ,

i know now You`re my only hope .

sing to me tha song of tha stars ,

of Your galaxy laughing and laughing again .

when it feels like my dreams are so far ,

sing to me tha plans you have for me over again .

i give You my apathy ,

i`m givin You all of me ,

i want Your symphony ,

singing in all that i am .

_____thankyouBITCH.

2005-01-18T18:17:00.000+08:00

hey .
to all tha people who have been asking me all these questions ,
i really appreciate ur concern and everything ,
but questions are tha last thing i want ta answer
right now .
all i want is a knife to kill myself ,
and dr. pepper . (:
haha .
kidding .
toodles .

____ihateyouernest.

2005-01-17T18:49:00.000+08:00

tears ;
as they drip from my eyes .
more than a thousand miles from you ,
but still i cry .
i feel tha arrows u tried ta pierce through ,
my already wounded soul .
u wanted to break my heart ,
and you walked away ,
slamming tha door on me , without hearing it crash ,
crash down to a million pieces .
i never knew you got me so captivated .
my heartstrings twirled around your finger , at ur disposal .
every word you said tied a knot tighter ,
and as you uttered tha last words ,
the harshest ones i never thought i`d hear ,
brought anguish ,
anguish a scream could never numb ,
tears could never heal ,
and a teenage girl left
:stricken .

___jesus//iLOVEyou*

2005-01-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

jerk jerk JERK .
i always fall for jerks .
and i always get hurt .
i believe their lies , i fall for sweet-talkers .
you JERK .
god , help me .
i`m sorry .
*takes a deep breath .
hi guys .
it`s me .
i`ve got a tiny headache ,
but it`s bearable .
i was like suffering yesterday night .
school was fun today .
we had this power trip that went over tha whole malaysia .
and a fire drill just at the right time during spanish . (:
fun fun .
and aizat came ta look at my dunks .
haha ! you silly !
had a great time today .
laughed laughed laughed ; with my frens .
just like every other day .
haha .
i can`t get it outta my head .
i just can`t dismiss how i feel inside .
i can`t even explain it .
all i know is that ,
i fell for a jerk .
a
j e r k .
i got played .
there`s no way you can prove me wrong .
and i`m supposed to suffer alone .
i got so hurt this time .
i dunno why .
and i can`t hate you .
i`ll lose out on so much if i do .
and it kills me .
i knew what i was getting myself into .
i heard what ppl told me .
but i still couldn`t help myself .
ROAR .
this is annoying . >:(
i`m off .
i need a kiwi .
haha .

whenever i call ,

u`re there .

redeemer and friend ,

cherished beyond all words ,

this love never ends .

morning by morning ,

your mercy awakens my soul .

i lift my eyes ta see ,

tha wonders of heaven ,

opening over me ,

your goodness abounds ,

you`ve taken my breath away ,

with your irresistible love .

___soSICK.

2005-01-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

hey .
i`m down with a fever .
my whole body was aching ,
and it was just .
torture .
but i took a lil siesta that lasted for like ,
four hours . (:
haha .
and i feel much better now .
got up and ate dinner right away .
din eat anything the whole day .
went home straight after school ended ,
which is really rare ,
but u can`t blame me .
i felt sick .
haha .
i skipped touch too .
slacked around at home for awhile ,
then met gab downstairs .
got home , took a shower straight away ,
and straight to bed .
might just skip school tmr .
we`ll see .
shoot on saturday . (:
can`t wait .
cya all .

mypoem.

2005-01-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

i stare out my window ;
past , out of the glass blurred , stained with raindrops .
the highways , the cars , the people .
will all pass with time`s old cauldron .
i stare till it blurs ,
out of the corner of my eyes ,
ignoring the tears that form ,
the shimmering city lights hold no peace .
i feel more alone than ever .
i sit and wonder ,
i`m engulfed as soak me in .

like infatuation appealing , dazzling ,

will last forever .
or so it seems .
i`m left alone .
it came , it went .
the place it made for itself ,
warm , welcoming , so fond .
now so cold , distant , empty .
your disparaging words ,
like pure poison to naive lips .
left with an emptiness no treasures can satisfy ,
no money can fill .
like a swan , unaware of any danger , in dark water .
i pick up my strength umpteenth times ,
only to falter .
as every effort i make fails ,
a part of me strips , the wall i`ve made for myself grows
as i burrow myself deeper into the corner
where i cry ,
where i cry tears of disillusionment you`ll never know .

____thruTHAsorrowANDthaPAIN.//*

2005-01-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

you seem so far away ,

a million miles or more , it feels today .

and though i haven`t lost my faith ,

i must confess right now ,

that it`s hard for me ta pray .

but i dunno what ta say ,

and i dunno where ta start ,

but as you give tha grace ,

with all that`s in my heart ,

i will sing ; i will praise .

even in my darkest hour ,

thru tha sorrow and tha pain .

i will sing , i will praise ,

lift my hands ta honour you ,

because your word is true .

i will sing .

hey all .

i`m back in kayelle now .

and i`m starting school tmr .

u know how crappy that is ?

i`d rather die .

hur .

got back around 4 today .

left sg at like , eleven ?

smth like that .

got home ,

and even tho i HATE unpacking ,

i unpacked right away .

called christina back ,

and we went out ta get some mags and baskin robbins .

got home ,

and been home ever since .

alone .

mom and dad went out with frens .

trying ta finish catcher in tha rye .

it`s not too bad ,

it`s pretty ,

interesting .

like my new skin ?

simple ?

yeah , it`s meant ta be .

heh .

i can`t believe school starts tmr .

i just can`t .

ugh .

waking up early again .

facing all the horrible teachers .

someone save me .

___justloseitAHahAHahAH .

2005-01-08T21:55:00.000+08:00

hey .
nessa`s back from vietnam .
saigon ta be exact .
it sounds all like ; backwards and all .
( no offence ta anyone out there)
but it was .
okay .
honestly .
i got some stuff . (:
yeah .
upload tha pics soon .
talkin ta nic now on tha phone .
he`s in singapore !
awesome .
talking ta gab now .
i dun really have much ta say .
tha food in vietnam was okay ,
not my favourite tho .
heh .
vietnam`s not all that bad .
i mean . they have prada and everythin there ,
so it shouldn`t be too far behind .
haha !
(:
i`ll blog another day .
my headache`s totally killing me .

____sgAIRPORT .

2005-01-06T14:08:00.000+08:00

hey . (:
current location : singapore airport .
and vanessa misses you all . heh .
yes peeps .
as pathetic as it sounds ,
i`m here at this free internet corner thingy .
it`s really nice here though .
all sunny . (:
i`ve been thinking quite alot ,
since there`s not much else to do but reflect
and everything .
oh , and ta eat all the chocolate i want too .
can`t get enough .
i just got my cinnamon and popcorn jellybeans !
yumyum .
it`s time ta indulge .
haha .
heehee . i love my nike dunks . (:
okay , enough abt them for once .
aiight , i`m off .
nessa . later . (:

___ernest .

2005-01-06T11:44:00.000+08:00

have we lost it all ?
u`re something i wanna hold on to .
we can make it work .
i promise .

hi guys .
haven`t blogged in awhile .
i`m either too tired ta blog .
too lazy .
or i just dun have tha mood .
time flies by so fast ,
i`m leaving sg already .
but it`s all good .
had tons of fun .
and it`s depressing ta be in town while everyone`s at school .
heh .
it`s all quiet .
got spotted by imodels international at fareast yesterday .
and by toni&guys in tha same day !
woot woot . (:
haha .
moving on . . .
i`m gg to vietnam today .
i dunnoe if i shud be excited , haha !
they say it`s really pretty and everything .
and good food .
hmmms .
sounds good enough ta me .
haha .
i haven`t seen matt , lynnie , etc etc yet .
it sucks .
but oh wells ,
there`s always next time .
for now ,
it`s to vietnam and back ta kayelle i go .
and into my jail called school .
but i keep telling myself i`ll make it back in six months .
cuz i dun wanna stay in kayelle anymore .
i hate it there .
but there`s smth i`m lookg forward to .
saki`s comg over spring break .
and i might be gg over ta bali with her to meet krystelle .
she`s so pretty now .
absolutely gorgeous .
haha .
went for my cousin`s wedding at mandarin yesterday night .
then walked around town with shaun .
came home around four in tha morning .
it`s gonna be a million years before i get back .
and i`ll try ta make sure it`s for good . (:
i dunnoe what i`m doing .
i know what i want , but i can`t get it .
i had this fight with him yesterday ,
and i dunnoe .
it`s just the way he acts that makes me feel this way .
or maybe it`s my fault .
but stop saying i don`t understand ; i dun care .
cuz u know yourself that i do .
maybe u can just stick ur head out of ur problems ,
and see mine ?
maybe the reason why i dun wanna talk abt how i feel ,
is because i dun want you ta have more burdens than u already have .
maybe if i`m of no help ,
there`s god up there who`s waiting ta hear from you ?
u just have ta trust him .
trust that he knows what he`s doing , and he knows what`s best for you .
maybe school`s what`s taking tha place where only HE should rightfully be .
and i hafta apply it to myself too .
it`s hard ,
because he seems so far away .
i`m left alone , like a lost puppy .
my prayers hit the ceiling .
i know they don`t , inside i know they dun .
but that`s how i feel .
i dunno why it hurts so much .
i guess i`ll just hafta let it go ,
no matter how much i dun want to .
get a grip on reality , and move on .
u`re uncertain , and i dun wanna put any more pressure than i alr have .
if i`m not making u any happier ,
then tell me what will .
*looks away -.
have fun all .

____letmeloveyou.

2005-01-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

you should let me love you .
let me be the one to give you everything you want and need .
baby , good love and protection ;
make me your selection .
show you the way love`s supposed to be .
baby you should let me love you , love you , love you .

happily ever after ?
/i haven`t found out.

maybe it was just meant ta be kept for fairytales .

and fairytales never come true .

but i`m waiting for someone ta prove me

wrong .

_______broke.

2005-01-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

hey all .
(:
i`m back .
met jacq today !
she made this dogtag thingy .
damn nice .
i like , i like .
went ta eat pastamania with her today .
saw eunice for awhile .
that silly girl , jacq .
she made me wait half and hour , okay !
hmmph .
saw dionna , germaine etc etc . (:
after so long .
was pretty cool .
walked around town for awhile .
met ernest again today .
he was kinda grumpy .
hahas .
heard lynnie was in town !
but i din get ta see her .
hmmph .
after we ate lunch/dinner/whatever .
hehe .
met cliff jerm ; ian ; le`en ; outside for awhile .
talked for abit ;
then we left .
think i`m meetin jacq tmr again .
not sure yet .
or i`ll go sun tanning or smth .
din get anything much today .
my money always disappears .
took nps again with jacq .
so nice !
we found a new machine .
haha ! (:
*shruggs -.
i`m off .

____inTHAmidstOFconfusion

2005-01-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

just got back .
went out with ernest for awhile .
slacked around town .
found it depressing .
it was so empty .
but he liked it like that .
heh .
my lungs seem so choked .
all tha cigg smoke .
*coughcough-.
heh .
and MATT .
if u`re readin this ,
u lil MR. AVOID VANESSA !
-.-
lols .
i`ve gotta meet you soon , okayy !
[[:
yesterday was such a horrible day .
was gonna go off ta amanda`s house at 5am in tha morning .
...
yeah .
well , let`s not talk abt it .
kinda depressing .
haha !
meetin sal and jacq tmr .
can`t wait . (:
one of my two favourite ppl .
hur .
i dun have much time left in sg ,
so i`m gonna make tha most of it .
i`ve been thinking alot lately .
but ANYWAYS !
u guys have fun .
school starts tmr .
bleahh . -.-
well ,
take care then .
love .

__happayeNEWyearss!

2005-01-01T15:13:00.000+08:00

it`s new years today .
looking back ,
i realise that time has gone by so fast .
too fast .
and so many things can happen in a year .
i actually feel pretty nostalgic abt some ;
yeahh .
went ta town yesterday .
slacked around sharon . liz . ppl .
till abt like .
five .
haha .
doing crazy stuff .
walking around .
talking .
(:
and who knows what else .
went for this watchnight service before that .
where i met wayne and ashley .
the cutest things god could ever make . (:
and sal knows them too.
big coincidence .
cuz i saw wayne and ashley at wisma .
then i saw them again .
at the watchnight service .
met ernest too .
but din get ta see him in town .
hmmph .
tha watchnight service wasn`t so bad .
with tha company of those two .
heh .
so yeah .
i`m feeling pretty twisted inside .
but i guess it`s just cuz it`s new years .
i`ve made my resolutions .
and yes ,
i know i never can keep them .
but i will try.
(:
well ,
i`m gonna go out now .
i SO need ta tan ?
but it`s raning non stop everyday .
aarrgh .
you guys all have a great day .
love .

_______happyNYE!

2004-12-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

elows.
happy nye , everyone .
went out wtih sal ta cut my hair .
she looks so different .
so jap .
mine`s just .
messy .
spikey .
still tha same la .
(:
was talking ta gab just now .
heh .
after cutting our hair ,
we headed ta cine from wisma .
met up with paul , ian , jerm , le`en and ppl .
saw rachelle ! (:
yayyy.
heh . and tabby too .
just sat and talked .
paul got some membership for tha fitness club thingy .
how cool .
(:
i need some sexercise !
aha .
home now ta change .
watch out clubs , here we come !
all of you have a great night .
MWAAAAAAAAAAA .
nessa lubs you all .

______imperfectionsANDall.

2004-12-30T19:14:00.000+08:00

i`m back.
everything`s going alright;
except my friggin parents .
but that`s expected anyways.
they label me rebellious
so what else can i do
but to live up to that?
heh.
yeah, so as i was saying.
eveything`s alright
cept i can`t shake tha fact that smth big`s abt ta happen.
and it`s not neccessarily good.
i feel like it`s bad. friggin bad.
*look away-.
sighss.
was supposed ta go ta town today.
meet matt and all;
but i`m stuck at home.
couldn`t slp at all.
insomnia`s a bitch.
meetin sal tmr ta get our funky hairdo`s done for nye.
-.-
heh.
dun scream when you see us. (:
*yawwns-.
how could i forget ?
met manda yesterday along with bjorn in heeren.
(:
she`s still as nice as ever.
hahss.
she got her ayumi hamasaki vcd.
some tour concert or smth.
haha.
dun kill me manda!
i couldn`t msg or call the whole of last nite.
so i just started throwing my fone around .
it`s so screwed now.
(:
who cares.
everyone`s having phone problems.
i`m craving choc again.
AARGH.
choc choc choc choc.

sometimes i sit and wonder;
i dunno why everything has ta be tha way it is now.
you say i dun call;
so why dun you make te initiative ta call instead?
you say u`re not sure.
you`ve got me thinking.
i wonder if i`m even close to finding tha perfect guy,
tha one every girl wishes for.
and i`m hoping it`s you.
because i`m willing to go for it.
imperfections and all.

_____sleepless.

2004-12-30T07:27:00.000+08:00

i can`t sleep.
tried sleeping around four.
and i`ve been tossin and turning ever since.
hmm.
lalala.

____meAGAIN!

2004-12-29T12:19:00.000+08:00

heh.
been here for over half an hour.
and it took me this long just to get
THREE sentences done.
heh.
yeah well anywayss.
(:
my feet are aching.
walked all over town.
din get much.
met sharon around twelve.
took nps.
turned out quite well.
heh.
ate lunch at nydc.
we`re grouchy customers.
haha.
it was kinda gross there;
well. guess i`ll leave out tha details !
after that; walked around town.
trying ta find sharon`s belt.
walk walk walk walk.
haha.
then sharon went ta meet a fren while i met sal.
went ta take nps AGAIN.
like FOUR or five diff machines.
smile smile smile.
she`s one pretty gurl !
heh.
looked good in EVERY pic.
-.-
then walked all over town.
walked from heeren to cine.
cine to lido.
lido to cine.
cine to wisma.
wisma to taka.
taka to cine.
aiya; somewhere along those lines.
haha.
then after we met mavis. mel. and ppl at kpool.
then le`en and cliff and ppl.
left after awhile ta go eat dinner.
ja ordered some spicy thing la.
my tongue was on fire.
haha.
then sal and i got crazy in tcc.
takin pics!
it was so fun.
i love that girl. (:
seein her tmr AGAIN.
i think.
haha.
what are you guys doing for nye?
i still haven`t decided.
lol.
probably sentosa.
but that`s so. typical.
heh.
well. (:
we`ll see.
i want ta cut my hair. -.-
alrighty then.
u all have a good nite.
cyaass!

____tellME.

2004-12-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

i`m home early today.
been out since like. 10.
today was a busy busy day.
met up with sher in tha morning after following mom ta meet her frenss.
hung around for awhile;
then headed to town.
met le`en and ian in cine.
sat there and just talked.
met some of le`en`s frens.
then we got up and left;
heh.
walked around; all tha way upstairs cuz that le`en needed ta pee.
that silly boy.
lol.
after; met sal at heeren.
went ta take nps. me, le`en and sal.
turned out quite well;
gave le`en tha ugly ones.
heh.
no luhh. kidding. (:
after that;
met ja and two of his frens.
was kinda awkward laa.
but it was alrightt.
walked around town.
went shopping with sal;
with ja and his frens, and le`en trailing behind.
hur.
ooh!
i got this really nice flesh`imp skirtt. (:
yum yum. haha.
after that;
sal left ta meet some ppl for dinner;
while le`en and i went ta meet paul. jerm. dp.
they wun stop making fun of my earrings, okayy! -.-
dunnoe what happened ta ja and ppl la.
le`en and ppl;
they were gonna drink.
then mich called me;
met her near wisma. (:
she`s one pretty gurl!
so yeah,
i ditched them. hurhur. (x
meetin sharon tmr.
a lil shopping spree.
can`t wait. heh.
then after;
meetin sal again.
MORE nps!
yayyyy!.
sal, if u`re readin this;
i hope u`re okayy, yeah?
you know what i`m talking abt. (:
if anything,
u know i`m just a call away.

__noONE.

2004-12-26T16:04:00.000+08:00

hey.
back from mv.
din get much todayy.
went into zara.
nothing.
mng.
too crowded; couldn`t be bothered.
roxy.
nothing.
guess.
din really feel like splurging on smth i wanted.
topshop.
oh yeah. i did get smth.
underwear. (:
laadeedaa.
then i went to get ice chocolate!
i LOVE chocolate.
it makes me a happy girl.
heh.
going down to sg tmr!
SO excited.
meetng gab for dinner; hanging out and stuff.
meetin jacq the next day.
dunno what else la.
was talking to you just now.
everything seems so perfect.
almost too perfect to be true.
u tell me we were meant for each other;
and i believe that; with all my heart.
but how long would this last?
we`re yet to find out.
but till then. no one can take your place.

____boulevardOFbrokenDREAMS

2004-12-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

oh dearrie me.
someone just called and informed me abt this certain biatch.
sometimes i just dun get ppl.
she was the one who gave him my number;
and she gets mad at him; accuses him of lying.
i mean. what the.
okay. i`m not gonna say anymore.
yeah.
dance went quite well today.
happy happy, joy joy.
MERRY XMAS, EVERYONE! (:
after that, went to eat with mj.
met matt. ashely. jo. and other ppl la.
hung around there for awhile.
went back ta eastin to mingle.
after that;
went for a manicure with vicki.
walked around.
got three new tops. (:
yayy.
saki called me just now.
just got off the phone with herr.
i miss her so much i could DIE.
but i`ll see her in march.
altho that`s like;
an eternity away;
it`s better than nothing.
girl, i love you to bitss, okayy.
(: haha.
can`t think of anything else ta blog.
toodles then;
once again--
MERRY XMAS!

mishew.

2004-12-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

_i_
MiSS
yOu*
and words can`t describe how much;

___feliz navidad!

2004-12-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

when i`m alone with ;you;
my troubles seem to disappear.
and the love that comforts me;
always comes when ;you are near.
and ;your love`s too much for my heart to contain;
joy too much, my feet won`t refrain.
so i dance; like the rain on the roof.
tell my soul that my spirit`s on tha loose;
dun think that anyone would understand.
feels like an angel`s got a hold on my hand.

merry xmas ppls.
well. xmas eve tmr.
so fast huh?
time just flies.
and u have no control.
gabe`s in sg alr.
aargh.
so jealous.
just got his xmas prezzie today. (:
went shopping around with emilyn.
200 bucks out of the window.
but it was well spent la.
haha.
singapore in four days.
and more splurging to do!.
haha.
nahh. gotta save.
(: yes yes.
i got these really cute pair of heels.
the one where the straps go all the way up.
so nice.
emy and i got the same pair. nice nice.
saw jes AGAIN at mv.
din go up ta brewball tho.
too busy trying to buy last minute xmas prezzies.
[[:
it was so crowded todayy.
talked to gabe on the phone awhile just now.
then talked to aaron.
I LOVE HOLIDAYS! HAHA.
i`m kuh-rayzeh.
it`s time again to celebrate one of everybody`s fave time of the yearr.
YAY!
wishing you all a merry xmas.
and soon to be; a happy new year.
i love you all.

____welcomeTOmyLIFE//

2004-12-22T13:18:00.000+08:00

morning guyss.
or should i say good afternoon?
(:
I LOVE MY NEW BLOGSKIN!
it`s like SO nice.
hahaha.
talking to julia now.
i kinda miss her la.
used ta talk all tha time.
dun anymore.
but i guess we`re starting to.
again.
and that`s good.
haha.
alrightyy then.
gotta get ready to meet elle. mj. ali. gabe.
at mv.
AGAIN.
someone just slap me already.
haha.
SAYONARA!
(eew, did i just say THAT?!)

____toWHOMitMAYconcern.

2004-12-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

to whom it may concern:
*rolls eyes*
i thot we already had it sorted out.
but whatever;
i never said u owed me ANYTHING.
i never said that the change of ur attitude was for me.
if u were even THINKING of changing, that is.
u yourself said u wud change;
all i was looking for;
was the evidence; the proof of ur words.
yeah. so u dun want another problem for urself?
that`s fine with me.
you started it all over again.
sometimes u`ve just gotta watch what you say.
yes, i know the words you use are supposed to hurt.
but maybe u should just turn the attitude down.
i`m sick of this.
or anything that comes with this, for that matter.

___pissOFF.

2004-12-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

excuse ME?
how dare me?
not to be mean or anything;
and it`s not like i had every right to;
but you yourself asked me to be honest.
and i was.
and this is tha crap i get.
i mean, just like; dun get so emotional?
u ask me for smth; i give it to you. and u get all emotional.
i mean;
seriously.
u ask me to be honest.
tell u what i really feel;
and i did.
and u get all annoyed.
and begin to bitch abt me full swing.
told you tt we can never go back to what we were before.
and even if we did, it`d take time.
okay, i`ll admit. i WAS pointing out ur wrong in some ways;
but u asked me to be honest; and i told u how i felt.
it wasn`t to bring you down.
i was just merely. telling you.
and dun fckin call me nasty.
i mean, u`re getting words from a SONG.
u dun even know me.
and dun say u know me better than some ppl.
so what?
that doesn`t give you any more reasons to bring me down like that.
all u knw how to do;
is sit back,
and bitch.
abt me.
abt everyone.
abt ur friends.
that`s what u`ve been doin all along.
u said u`ll change.
show that to me.
u just brought me down with ur friggin words again.
and yes. i know it was abt me, okayy?
even tho it wasn`t directly adressed to me.
just save it already.
sometimes i ask myself tha same questions ppl ask me.
ARRGH.
so what if we can`t be as close?
at least we`re still frenss.
and dun go around telling me how i just dun get it.
cuz if there`s anyone hu doesn`t get it; it`s you.
okay?
i know.
i know how u felt wen u said those things abt me; i know how you feel wen u blog.
but i can`t do anything abt it.
more like; i dun want to.
i`m keeping my distance.
because what happened in tha past;
can happen again.
if what i`ve said in this entry,
makes u bitch in full swing,
i`m prepared for that;
because i can`t take it anymore.
as much as i dun want it to; ur words hurt.
and i`m SICK of that.
just piss off.

____isANOTHERmistakeTOyou-+

2004-12-21T20:48:00.000+08:00

heyhey. (:
how are you guys in this joll-ayyeee holidayy season, hmm?
doing all ur last minute christmas shopping?
haha.
just got back from mm not too long ago.
mj and ali sent me home.
so sweet, rite.
hung around mm awhile.
brewball.
saw denis and his fren.
forgot what that guy`s name was, but he goes to our school.
anywayss.
hung around with darren. rash. mj. ali. dean.
just hung around and talked.
elle and amanda, they weren`t there today.
think they`re going mv tmr.
might be goin as well.
met ka`men at brewball.
that sexy bitch.
haha.
she cut her hair. nice nice.
went ta eat before that.
or should i say; MARIEL JANE went ta eat.
met gabe and his friends.
might be goin ta playerss tonite.
ali and gabe wud be there.
not sure. -.-
and mj wants to sleep over.
had dance practice today.
10-3.
and kenny was showing us his friggin attitude.
he was all pissy and stressed; so friggin cranky?
mandy and i were like bitching abt him.
haha.
to tha point of quitting.
aiyo; that mj.
too in love with ali laa.
haha.
whateverr.
had a major famoly breakup yesterday?
like; it was so.. scary.
all started with jon and i;
that bastard.
i mean, come on.
he was giving me attitude.
so was val.
so i just walked out; went home.
and thanks to THEM, they just hadta call mom.
so i hadta sit thru her nagging.
which wasn't so bad.
cuz she let me bitch abt jon.
hurhur.
and then dad came home and screamed at both of us; jon and me.
so we hadta sit down and fckin sort it out.
like i even wanted to.
and mom walked out.
and vicki doesn`t wanna come up for xmas.
which is damn stupid;
cuz she just KNOWS i need her here?
hmmph.
gonna call her tonite.
anyways.
AMANDA CHAN, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOUUU LAAAA. (:

2004-12-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

oh. damn everything.
damn jon especially.
then damn my sister.
then damn this whole world.
anyways.
went for dance practice today.
sucked.
sucked.
sucked.
okay;
that sounded WRONG!
hmmph.
the dance and spending time with tha newsongers was the highlight of my day.
(:
after, gladys picked me up.
wenta eat.
then helped decorate for this "family" get togetha thing.

________stupidHAPPYchicaLIKEme.

2004-12-16T17:57:00.000+08:00

hey.
just got home from ou. and ikano.
(:
was pretty fun.
got like. three pairs of earrings.
shoes.
slippers.
a paul frank bag.
aha.
talking to aaron now.
things aren`t really getting better;
but at least we`re frens again.
i dunno if we ever can be as close as we were before.
hope so tho. heh.
TODAY IS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! (:
wooohoooo.
i am lykkeee, sooooo fuhhh-riiiiiigggiiinnn happpaaayyeeeee!.

___shugees. ahah;

2004-12-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

thank you for being who you are.
thank you for ur fake sociable self.
thank you for being the robber that you are.
thank you for hurting everyone`s feelings, including mine.
even though you dun noe it.
thank you for just being who you are.
you suck at it.
hurhur.
anyways. enought abt you.
had my eng and alg exam todayyee.
like, wrote until ma hand fell off or sumfin.
hello?
six essays.
i barely had like; any timee.
finished a few minutes beforee i hadta give tha papers in.
(:
just in time.
went to alicia`s house ta studee with xtina yestadaee.
was pretty fun; her room`s really nice.
talked abt evryfin.
it was pretty cool. ((:
yarr. well anyways.
was talking on tha phone with naz todayye.
he`s so cute. he called me cuz heyya was on.
our song!-.
crack upp erry time i watch it wiv him.
got my science exam tmrr,
MY LAST EXAM! (:
and also tha last daee of school fo me.
partaye up, ppl.
lol.
kate was givin me her bullcrap abt this stupid talent search thingy again.
i mean, bull.
hurhur.
kate, like i`d evaa join.
and, like i`d ever get in if i DO join.
(:
so why even botha?
alrightyys.
gonna start studying now. (:
you guys have a great nite.
love ya all.

___wishMEluck.*//+

2004-12-14T18:39:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
omg.
tha asian studies exam was pretty damn hard.
i mean,
i practically wrote till my hand fell off or smth.
that ass.
made us write so much.
we had to write TWO essays with each five paragraphs;
endless fill in tha blanks.
endless short answer essays.
and no mulitple choice.
and i arrived in tha exam room;
late.
only by like five minutes.
but it was humiliating enough;
mr daley was in another one of his cranky moods again.
like that made it any better.
teachers just havta be so tricky wen makin exams.
they tell u to study; just in case; for certain topics.
and then u study and memorizie ur ass off for them;
just to find out he concentrated more on the other topics.
and there was a map.
a map!?
hello?
he never told us.
i mean.
ugh, whatever.
jon`s downstairs playing bball with chrise.
yeah, anyways.
i really shud be studying.
eng and alg tmr.
TWO hard exams in one day.
and two hard markers.
(:
oh well.
wish me luck.

____+WhenIShudBeStudyingInstead//.

2004-12-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

i really should be studying instead.
but NO.
i just havta be so distracted.
haha.
-.-
anywhooss.
was talking to this guy called sean just now.
was pretty fun.
well, it relieved me from some of my boredom.
FOUR more days of exams.
FOUR more days of school.
and then i`m friggin free.
oh, and sorrie abt the latest entry.
i was all. ;pissed.
mad.
hurt.
annoyed.
i just felt like a bitch.
hahas.
anyways.
some ppl have nothing better to do.
so they ruin lives.
just lay off my friends, wudcha?
is it fun ruining ppl`s lives cuz u dun have one of your own?
AARGH.
this world is just.
nothing close to whatever i used to think it was.
my exams are drawing nearer.
in fact;
it`s tmr.
needta be in school for like;
two hours, then i`m free.
(:
yay.
anywaysss.
i`ll be in sg in like, TWO WEEKS.
imu all over there!
MANDA`POO!
we havta go shopping!
and sharon, we gotta take more np`s.
oh, and get more clothes too, okayyye.
and sal. james. paul. kane. aiken. le`en. matt. bren. rhonn. lynnie.
everyone.
i gotta see you guysss.
(:
yay!
okie, nessa`s gonna go.

___?

2004-12-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

a pretty face
with an empty soul
they say you're nice
but i say there's nothing there
long hair and photographs
with music that tastes kind of good
but that's not enough to make me care
//
substanceless like diet coke
looks like something sweeter
but there's really no sugar to spare;

okay.
i was trying to write this new style of poems.
haha.
din turn out really well, i guess.
she got what she wanted;
but she lost two potential friends.
she din have ta lie;
but she did.

___hate you.

2004-12-12T15:49:00.000+08:00

I HATE THAT

STUPID BIATCH

U FUHRIGGIN BASTARD;

BURN FOR THIS SHIT.

I HATE YOU;

IT`S NOT LIKE IT DOESN`T HURT ENOUGH;

GET A LIFE, YOU PLAYER.

OR DO YOU NOT HAVE ENOUGH MONEY?

+theREALjoyTRUElove`sCONFESSIONSbring+

2004-12-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

hey.
i`m actually feeling pretty.
hrrmmms.
like, queasy.
exams in two dayss.
like, i dunno why.
i mean, i`ve studied and all that;
aargh.
i guess it`s just like;
exam phobia or smth.
went ta church todayy.
wasn`t so bad.
then went for lunch with val and jon.
saw joy and like; ben?
in tha car?
i think they saw me too;
mebbe it wasn`t even them.
a week till sch ends; and it`s all good.
can`t wait.
tmr`s my last 'real' school day;
we`re gonna have a blast.
(:
yippppeee!
heaven knows tha real joy true love`s confession brings. (:

____andSHEfailed.

2004-12-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i just added smth ta my blog;
so go check it out.
scroll down all the way to tha bottom;
left box.
(:
just got home.
going out again;
going to stacey`s house.
talking to isaac now.
sounds like he`s having so much fun;
and he doesn`t even miss me.
hmmphh.
(:
lol.
creme de la creme!
i`m gonna be down SOON!
omg.
i like SO can`t wait.
i`m dying here.
last week of school, and i`m loving it.
even though i havta study my arse off;
hu cares?
[[:
alrighttyy thennn.
i think i`m gonna go.
i`m running late.
...again.
sorry, stace.
cya guys!

____soTRICKYme.//+

2004-12-10T16:30:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
back home.
i gotta study, so i`m not going out tonite.
besides, val and jon are comin up tonite from sg,
so yeah.
it`s all good.
(:
went for the drunk before dawn thingy yesterday night.
it was pretty good.
friendster`s pretty screwed right now.
it`s so like; laggy.
needta study for exams.
study study study!
vanessa, concentrate!
we had a partaye thingy for spanish.
hurhur.
he was in a bad mood at first though,
that frogfrace.
he and his stupid mood swings.
lol.
can`t believe this is tha last week of school.
next week doesn`t really count;
i mean, it`s exam time.
blaadeeblabla.
no mood to blog.
i`d rather be out shopping or smth;
cya fuhreakos.

))))headINmyHANDS((((

2004-12-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

i`m like;
torn in all directions.
everyone`s just like;
i dunnoe.
i feel so used;
one wants me to come early tmr.
actually, two.
one wants me to follow her to go eat supper;
then follow her home;
one`s constantly forgetting to return my roxy jacket;
one`s asking me to come for drunk before dawn on saturday;
she`s giving me no choice.
one`s questioning; more like interrogating on why i dun return calls.
one`s constantly bringing me down; controlling my every move.
one`s being grumpy, constantly getting angry.
one`s annoyed; cuz of a misunderstanding.
and the one writing this, is sitting here, with her head in her hands.
one`s sitting here questioning everything;
one`s sitting here stressed;
annoyed;
about to fall sick;
tired of this never-ending cycle;
omg.
-.-
i need a break, i need a break!
gimme, gimme!;
and i STILL have practice tmr;
which isn`t even optional.
how annoying.
-.-
and jo just left for chris`.
and i`m like alone here?
like, spare me already.
i think i`m gonna go take a beauty bath.
cya chicos.

_____concreteANGEL*//+

2004-12-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

doing my english essay,
like;
how boring can life get?
was supposed to go out with chrissie today;
sorry girll.
think we`re planning to meet her later; at night.
i`m so sick of school.
still have a week more;
then it`s exams.
then it`s partay timee! (:
get ready ta partaayee!.
we`re gonna have a helluva great time.
can`t wait ta get my ass back in sg.
i miss you ppl;
sal, jacq, manda, etc etc;
you guys are tha bomb.
hurhur.
school was fuhriggin boring todayee.
like we din do anythin at all.
i`m gonna havta study my ass off these few days;
hafta do well, hafta do well!
decided to change my font color;
think i`m gonna change my blogskin sometime soon.
there`s smth wrong with my msn.
it won`t sign my in;
aarghh.
today`s sucha bad day.
i`m feeling grumpy ; restless.
think it`s time for my siestaaa! (:
hurhur.
i painted my toenails purple;
like;
dark purple;
anyways,
i`m in love with moulin rouge. (:
yes, i know it`s old,
but it`s such a good movie.
alrightyyyss, i`m gonna go.
cya all.

____shakeTHERroomBAYBEH!

2004-12-07T17:52:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
omg, like i`m so stressed out.
only like.
seven days till my first exam,
but it`s okay.
cuz it`s the most pointless, easiest, crappiest subject.
asian studies.
i meann, who gives exams on asian studies? -.-"
i can`t go anywhere these two weeks.
bummer.
nessa, concentrate.
CONCENTRATE!
i`m loving ciara!
she`s so cool.
imma be shaking my ass pretty soon,
so you bitches get off tha dance floor;
cuz me and my girls are gon` shake tha room.
(:
but right now.
nessa`s gotta get back to her studying. (:
she`s got a future to think abt.
hurhur.
how lame.
cya fuh-reeeekoooosss!

_____andthiswasmyDAY//

2004-12-06T18:24:00.000+08:00

heyhey. (:
just got back from practice.
lemme update you guys on my so-called 'wonderful' life.
lol.

-SUNDAY-

all of us newsongers were actually excited for nothing.
the dinner was;
well, okay.
boring.
the normal like, weddin dinner.
well, sort of.
i wud`ve died if mj wasn`t at my table.
the food was pretty okay.
not that good, not that bad.
mj was my vaccum cleaner!
she ate everything i din want.
like, eew?
hu eats octopus?
hahha.
it was all squiggly and everything.
-pukes-
then there was this teaser thingy for drunk before dawn.
it was pretty good.
left the dinner place pretty early.
went outside ta walk around,
yes JOEY!
it was WHACK!;
whatever that means. (:
you and ur kiwi slangs. hahahaha.
okay, that sounded odd.
lalala.
after that, went home.
studied abit.
din do ANY of my hw over tha weekend,
but manage to get everything done in an hour. (:
-MONDAY-
good morning, ppls.
nessa`s grumpy.
was grumpy tha whole morning.
had health first, which made it even worse.
but it was alright.
had some sex talk.
she`s so... demonstrative.
okay. whatever.
i hate ms. sadek. haha!
break was pretty fun.
everyone was stealing my fries.
hahaha.. (:
but it`s not like i really wanted them.
could do without the extra fat.
dance was after break,
was so fun.
watched chicago and moulin rouge.
oh wait.
we din get to moulin rouge.
but chicago`s an awesome movie.
it`s pretty. sensual though. (:
but it`s good. really.
after that, asian studies.
i HATE mr daley!
he made us retake the test. -.-
and we hadta so this parent group info thingy.
like, how lame.
hahhaa.
and after, spanish!
besides dance, i thought that was the class that was the most fun.
we were just kinda reviewing and everything.
practicing our conjugations.
and then school ended.
and then i changed for practice.
and then i bought chips.
and water.
and and and. (:
we played in the wet grass.
and we had fun.
and.
this way my day. (:

____getMYsatisfaction.(:

2004-12-04T22:30:00.001+08:00

heyhey miss_xinful//
long time no blog, eh?
been negelcting you.
oh well.
just got back from out with mj and jo.
was pretty fun,
but jo seemed pretty... distant?
hmmmph.
oh well.
he`s being really. ugh,whatever.
anyways. (:
had dance practice today.
accomplished quite alot, so that`s good.
yayyyy.
exams in two weeks,
and i dun feel like studying.
i have to.
come on, vanessa.
study.
u can do it!(:
arghh, dun feel like blogging.
nothing much ta say.
cept the dinner`s tmr, and i`m SOOOO dayuummmm excited. (:
party up ppl!.
cya asses around sometime.
enjoy ur saturday night.

_____100%flunkerr.

2004-11-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

...
i failed my spanish exam.
i`m not 100% sure,
but i think i did.
it was so..hard.
and like, i din study tha right conjugations.
i mean, i did.
but i din spend alotta time on those.
i hate when teachers do that. -.-
we were talking abt the exam after,
and i got some answers right.
but still.
i flunked it.
i friggin flunked it.
everyone thot it was hard.
..
i studied so hard for it.
ugh, fck it.
got an eng essay to do,
and science crap to finish.
the asian studies quiz was easy. (:
friendster`s lagging.
it`s so slow.
anyways, i`m off.
tata.

______andI`Msorry.

2004-11-29T17:57:00.000+08:00

hey miss_xinful. (:
long time, no blog.
it`s time ta hit tha books.
i`m so bummed out.
everyone`s having fun.
i`m sitting here, studying my socks off.
-.-
it`s so unfair.
have my spanish exam tmr.
-shudders-
school was pretty fun todaye.
highlighted my hair again.
some copper red color,
but it din turn out that bright.
just nice.
i`m loving it. (:
my hair smells like dye though.
doesn`t smell too good.
skipped practice today.
sorry cheryl. ):
anywhooz, dinner`s on the fifth,
sunday.
so gotta make all my hair appointments again.
yayyy.
i pissed mr tong off so bad todayy.
it wasn`t my fault.
he was being so friggin annoying.
he and his stupid astroboyy;
he`s taken my phone away so many times.
hello?
some msgs are important.
that friggin frogface.
0-0
okay, i`m gonna shut up now.
hmmmphss.
i miss you jacqqq. ):
alriteyss.
goodbye to eu*

wantTomakeYOOfeelBEAUTIFUL_____

2004-11-28T21:27:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i have GOOD news!
yes, good.
VERY VERY GOOD.
and i have bad news, too.
but it isn`t as bad as tha good.
okay, i`m talking rubbish.
i`m moving back like almost, for sure.
in 2006.
april. 2006.
yes, i know it`s quite a long time away.
well, actually, to me, it`s not.
i mean, considerin tha fact that it`s almost alr 2005.
and my parents aren`t coming down with me.
u noe what that means?
fun, fun and more fun.
nessa`s gonna wreack havoc!.
lol.
(:
nahh, i`m gonna be a good girl.
i`m gonna go down and do mass com and law.
so i skip two years.
go ta college.
okay, i`m not as brainy as i sound.
(:
but i`m so happy.
it`s killing me.
haha!
bad news is, i dun get my eng essay and it`s alr 913.
that means i can`t do anythin else except my eng essay tonite.
and i have swimming for pe tmr.
that sucks.
i hate it.
and my exams are a WEEK away.
and i dun feel all that prepared.
hmmmmphh.
met joseph today.
he`s pretty nice.
like, fun ta be around with.
baby`s sleeping at home.
he`s so tired.
sighh. poor thing.
);
if u`re readin this now,
i love and miss you. (:
din do much today cept
ta josh`s house.
with nic, joseph, mj, mandy, adeline..
watched eurotrip.
lol.
it was so hilarious.
scotty doesn`t know, that fiona and me, do it in my van, every sunday. (:
u gotta admit that it HAS a catchy tune.
i think that scotty guy is ubbbberrrr hot. (:
not as hot as my baby, but still.
hurhur.
alrightyss, i`m off.
i`m craving grapes.
cya!

_____-whatever.

2004-11-27T12:52:00.000+08:00

i like big butts and i cannot lie. (:
hahaahah..
hey guyyyyyyssss!
ugh, dad just walked in and complained that i hardly talk to them anymore.
bleahx.
whatever.
anyways.
had my tournament today at iskl.
omg.
1030-6.
not even funny.
i was tired like hell.
but it was fun.
we got ta play in tha rain at the end of the whole thingg.
i`m quite tanned now, but it`s alright. (:
i kinda ruined my hair todayee.
bought the damn hairdye and tried to highlight my hair some other color.
shit
i gotta get off now.
arrrgh!~
blog tmr. (:
love you all.

blahblahblah.

2004-11-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i`m going clubbbbiiinnngggg toniteee!
errrboddyy in tha club get tipsayee. (:
i miss you, baby!
)':
mom`s all busy now.
neglecting her dearest daughter.
i got my kleats today.
so did cheryl.
we`re happy girls.
-smirks-
lalalala.. x)
tournament tmr!
1030-5pm.
crazy?
tell me abt it.
okayee, i just hafta announce this.
MANDYpoo IS BACKKKKK FROM THAILAND! (:
alrighty i`m off.
i gotta go get ready.
i totally splurged today.
and i dun feel bad.
hmmph.
hahahaha!
(:

______andI`MfeelingSEXYY!

2004-11-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
am talkin to jacq now.
(:
i miss you girl.
it`s been a long time since i last saw you.
sec1 seems like such a long time ago.
-.- hmmphhs.
stupid `rents.
they just HADTA send me here to study.
-pouts pouts pouts-
dad`s back from;
wherever he went.
just got back from practice not too long ago.
so friggin tiredd.
have a game against iskl on saturday. -.-
baby`s out with his friends again.
he msged me todayy.
am so happie! (:
i need kelp tablets.
jacq, u`re such a good salesgirl.
lol.
aiight, gonna go.
going out on a thursday night.
(:
after being such a good girl;
watch out world,
nessa`s out to getchaa!

___alliwantforchristmasisYOO*

2004-11-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

santa claus won`t make me happy,

with a toy on christmas day.

i just want you for my own,

more than you could ever know,

all i want for christmas..

yoo*

________________________-*-________________________

oh, i don't want a lot for christmas

this is all i`m asking for

i just want to see my baby

standing right outside my door

oh i just want him for my own

more than you could ever know

make my wish come true

baby all I want for christmas is you..

colourful?

yes, i know.

i was bored.

and i`m already in a xmass moodd! x)

just got home,

not too long ago.

all i want for christmas, is *you.

___+theEMOTIONALvanessaYOU`VEneverSEEN.

2004-11-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

to hell with everything. i try my best everytime. i dun always succeed, but i do try. my best. and what do i get? nothing. i`m sick of this whole thing. why am i even trying so hard? you just take me for granted, while i`m being pushed around, with you wondering why i can`t be like my sister. no, you dun say it, but i can read it on your face, and you know what?

i hurt too.

maybe it`s time you try to see that. i do try. i can`t be someone else. this is who i am. i`ve tried so hard to change into smth that wud make u happy, but i seem to fail everytime. all this while, i come home earlier. i stay at home, and you dun see all tha efforts i make to get you to notice that i`m responsible enough. you`re just stuck in your own world of, 'oh, she`s always like that. why can`t you grow up? the world is more than just boys and shopping.' my gawshh, get a grip. i can see that. and i know that for myself. so many times. time after time, you`ve made me wish i was anything but yours. just somebody else. i`m sorry i can`t be your favorite daughter, and don`t give me the bs of, 'oh, we dun show favoritism', because your actions just contradict your words. and stop telling me who i shouldn`t hang around with, or what type of guy i should go for. cuz i just want to be happy. and i already am. dun kill it. and why do you have to drill me in abt all the xianity stuff? just relax, get a grip on yourself. i know i haven`t been to church. well, actually i have.. but sometimes u just have to leave me alone. i wish you would just understand me instead of just assuming you know me too well. cuz you know what? you don`t.

and what`s with everybody as well? all you see is the outside. maybe not all of you, but some. maybe it`s time to change. yeah, we poke each other emotionally and everything, but it`s just irritating after awhile. what happened to the good times last year? all we have now is memories. can we stop gettin mad at each other over tha slightest things? the stupidest things? it doesn`t matter after awhile. and you know it. i dun wanna lose you. and no matter what happens, -nudges- i`ll still love you guys to bits. what happened to the other two of us? we promised we`d stay together, and i dun want our reunion in `o8 to be the first time in like, what. two years that we`ve talked. i know we still keep in touch. but... i din know that i`d feel the distance so tangibly. we promised it`d never happen. but it did. -looks down- sigh. i hate when life throws lemons at you.

and cheryl, sometimes i feel totally neglected by you. and then my whole world falls apart cuz you mean too much to me. i dunno how i`d get thru school life without you, girl. you`ve always been there for me, and i appreciate you so much for that. i hate that sometimes we fall apart, but we always manage to get back to what we were. u`re my sugar plum. (: you know you love me too!

sometimes i feel like i`m misunderstood by the world. like no one understands what it`s like to be me. i`ve had endless nights where i just cry myself to sleep till my veins could pop out, for no reason at all. but now, they`re gone, cuz i have someone to make me smile. but then, what`s with tha stupid counsellor hu got involved in all our problems? she never made anything better, she never will. this is my life, and i know how to deal with it. you can`t hold me down. i`m just gonna break away. i`m gonna retaliate. what should i do to tell you that i`m fine on my own? what can i do to get you off my back?

i know this is a long entry, but you guys dun hafta read it. (: i just feel kinda emo todayy. pms, i guess. but bear with me. (: go tag my board if you`re uber bored or smth.

anywhoos, as i was saying. i look back at my life and i`m surprised time flies so fast. and in some ways, it saddens me that i hadta leave my childhood so fast, too. i know this`ll sound awfully pathetic, but sometimes i see tha small kids just running around without having anything to worry abt, and i wish i never left that. cuz life is just gonna get harder. things are gonna change, whether i like it or not. i see the kids; they`re just running around, hair blowing in tha breeze, till it`s time to go home, but they don`t complain. i haven`t had the best life, but i haven`t had the worst either. right now, is the time when i just look up and smile because i feel so lucky, so happy. and it`s because of you, baby. it sucks that i can`t be with you as much as i want to. my life is pretty much bouncy and happy, and i hope it stays this way. i hope this lasts. baby, you make me happy. i love you.

christmas is coming soon, i can`t wait! ((: i`m gonna go christmas shoppin with mandyPOO (haven`t informed her abt this, by tha way) and it`ll be sooo much fun. love buying gifts. i dun care that it`s like, hmm.. giving away money. cuz it`s actually not? sometimes buying prezzies are like, a test of how well you know a person. you get me? hahaha.. i`m SO uber lame. -.- slap me please.

i can`t wait to be down. and kiss under the xmas lights. my my, did i just say that? lalalala.. -looks around-

-bounces off- goodbye worllldddd! ((:

p.s- le`En, have fun tonightttt! i wanna see the picss, alrightyy? x) love yaa to bitss!*

____heyhey!

2004-11-24T16:43:00.000+08:00

hey ppls!
i`m at nic`s house now.
awesome?
i know, tell me about it.
listening to missy elliott. (:
she rawks.
baby`s out lookin for his pants for his prom tonight.
heehee.
so bored at nic`s house.
i got into his house and used the comp
straightaway.
hahah! thanks tho, nic. (:
dl more rnb tho.
too much rock in urs. -.-
lalalala..
imma ciao. (:
byebye!

_______VANESSAandLE`EN.

2004-11-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
(:
i`m a happy girl now.
talked to my baby just now.
he makes me so happy.
-spreads hands out-
lalalala..
and i was talkin to my bestie buddy just noww!
so yeah.
today wasn`t so bad after all.
and i`m talkin to lausanne now.
she brings up so many polka-dotted memories.
lol. (:
i miss st. marrrrrrrgssss!
-pouts-
okay, it took me two hours to get to here.
lol.
((:
so many ppl online.
i`m becomin a computa freak.
just SO super sad.
well, i guess that`s it for todayy.
-nods-
I LOVE YOU LE`EN! (:

___andALLiWANTisYOU//

2004-11-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

and still haven`t heard from you.
you don`t pick up my calls,
you don`t reply my msgs.
i`m dying here.
)':
*sighh-.
school was okay today.
i kept thinking abt you, though.
and i got caught msging you.
why are you avoiding me?
*sighh-.
-looks down-
i din do as well as i wanted to for my alg. test.
):
sucks.
oh well.
i can`t think of anythin else but you.
i guess that`s my blogging for todayy.
-nods-
maybe i shouldn`t think too much?
cya then.

____whyDON`Tyoo?

2004-11-22T19:59:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i`m feeling kinda.
bitchy.
sad.
left out.
neglected.
slightly annoyed.
everyone uses 'imma' the wrong wayy.
i mean, educate yourself.
okayee.
i`ll shut up.
i`m being meannn!
i feel slightly cranky.
lol.
*shurggs-.
someone seems to have forgotten me.
...
anywaysss.
bellefire`s on.
i dun usually like them,
but tha song`s pretty nice.
like, tha tune. (:
dreams last for so long,
even after u`re gone,
i know you love me,
and soon you`ll see,
you were meant for me,
and i was meant for youuuu..
today has been such a boring dayy.
i haven`t done anything.
just stayed online for practically tha whole dayy.
went down ta walk around for awhile,
saw elaine.
((:
chatted for awhile.
someone hasn`t been missing me at all.
enjoying his new found freedom.
but i`m happy for you,
you deserve it after all tha studying, and being
tha good boy that u are.
(;
heehee.
*sighhh-.
i miss you le`en.
why don`t you?

____holdinON.

2004-11-22T15:55:00.000+08:00

helloooooo everyoneee!
i din go ta school todaeee.
it`s already 326~
i`ve got NO homework to do!
friggin happy.
(:
and my baby`s finishing his exams todayy.
he`s gonna be a free boy from now on,
enjoying life,
while i`m stuck here
studying like mad for my exams.
-.-
gawwdd, i really needta do well.
i`m gonna dye my hair with mj one of these dayss.
i can`t wait to be down in singapore, i can`t wait to be down in singapore!
i hate it here, i HATE it hereeee! ):
*sighhh-.
laadeedaadeedumm.
friendster is so slow todaee.
i dun really have much to blog.
i stayed home, slacking around for tha whole day.
how fun, rightt?
-.-
aiight, i`m gonna go give aaron a call.
oh, and le`en,
if you`re readin this now,
i love youuu.

checkinCHECKINcheckin.

2004-11-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
just testing if my new template works.
if you know what i mean.
(:

______iNEEDyouNOW.

2004-11-21T19:33:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
roarrr!
(:
i`m back.
slept at four last nite.
woke up at six.
crazy me.
and i was practically falling asleep everywhere.
i DID get the zara skirt i wanted though.
*grinsss-.
FINALLY.
went out with my parents and their frenss todae.
like SO super boring.
i was walking alone by myself.
and my baby was totally neglecting me.
hurhur.
x)
but i still love you.
it`s already sunday,
and i have tons of hw waiting for me.
i jsut have to be cursed with school,
while everyone around me are enjoying their hols.
and worse,
i hafta study for my exams.
*poutss-.
i still have FOUR weeks till i`m down in sg again.
friggin long time.
*sighh-.
today`s a bad dayyy.
i need you now, le`en.

_____le`enANDvanessa:;

2004-11-21T02:41:00.000+08:00

hey all.
two forty one in tha morning.
((:
and i`m loving it,
because this is tha happiest day of my life.
211104.
now till forever.

-.i love you so much, le`en.-

u`re my baby.
my prince charming.
u`ll always be,
cuz i`ll love you,
.forever.
(:

_____ANDiLOVEyouLE`EN.

2004-11-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
nessa`s back from the semi`formal.
*sighh-.
all the excitement for nothing.
okae, i din mean that.
but..
yeah.
it wasn`t as good as i expected.
but tha dancing was good though.
everyone was dirty dancing,
and everyone looked good.
especially you, alea!
muahahhaa. ((:
and naz, you looked great as well!.
and luke,
you sexy dancer. lol. ((:
too dirty, too dirtyyy!
damn you.
lol.
the food kinda sucked tho.
so no one reallie ate anything.
hahaha..
came home early after that cuz i wanted to talk to
my baby.
talking to him now.

i miss you too, le`en. (:

i`m a satisfied customer.
they did my hair reallie well,
but the hairspray`s kinda hard to wash off.
and they used a hell load of pins.
and it reallie hurts, okae.
taking them out.
lol.
okie, think i better get off now.
i`m kinda neglecting my baby. :/
cya all.
enjoy ur saturday night!

____andIdunWANTtheWORLDtoSEEme.

2004-11-20T08:29:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
today`s my prom night. (:
and i`m actually excitedddd.
yes, i`ve been talking abt nothing but my prom here,
but i can`t help it.
i just packed my baggie for school.
hey you guysss. ((:
i`ll be down in like, less than a month. ((:
i miss you all.
reallie wanna see you guys.
especially le`en. (:

.___andSHE`sBACKagain.

2004-11-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

mj!
FAILL la, FAIIILLLL!!
you fail.
everyone check my baby mj`s blog out!
so nice laaa.
(;
and hon, i miss you too.
yes, vanessa`s back and hyper.
i got everything sorted out with cheryl.
and i`m so happy abt it.
(:
god, girl.
u mean so much to me.
and aiken wants me to mention him on my blog,
so ...
HI AIKEN.
FAILLLLL LAAA FAILLLLL. x)
i miss you mj.
can you believe i`m home on a friday nite?
gawsh, how pathetic is that?!
have dance practice tmr.
then i hafta go to mm ta get my hair and nails done.
for my semi-formal! (:
it`s tmr nighhhtttt!
(:
i miss and love you everyone.

___cheryl,iLOVEyoo*

2004-11-19T19:48:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
CHEH-NEL!
i love alea!
woohoo!
sexy sexy.
i`m writing a testi for emilyn now.
thanks all hu bothered to write me one.
(:
tmr`s semi`formal nite!
yaaaayyy!
oh oh.
best fren trouble.
cheryl, i love you.
i really do.
and u are worth it.

____iLOVEyouLE`EN.

2004-11-19T12:10:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i stayed home todae.
but yet.
it seems to be one of the best days of my life.
i made up with aiken.
we talked on tha phone and everything.
then i ate cherries. (:
hahaha.
and that le`en.
you make my dayyy.
you make me a happy girl. x)
wish i could be there for your prom.
and i wish you could be here for mine.
but i`ll be down soon.
(:
oh yeah.
i just want you to know that,

*i love you-.

.____youHAVEaMASSIVEass.

2004-11-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

heyhey. (:
i just got back from school.
well, not reallie.
an hour and a half ago.
din feel like going out.
cheryl came over for awhile.
snapping away on my fone again.
(: fun fun.
talking to josh.
he`s got some juuuiccccyyy stuff to tell me.
ahahaha..

u`ve got me going craaazzzzyy..

turn me on, turn me onnn..

lolx.

oops, sorrie.

it`s kinda stuck in my head.

the tune`s reallie nice,

and it`s tha ultimate song for dirty dancing.

well.

hmmm, not reallie.

one of the ultimate songs for dirty dancing.

*grinss-.

where is le en?!

muahahahaha.

he`s my leonie buddy. (:

i`m talking to my sister now.

i miss her so much.

love you, jie. (:

cya guys.

____.i`mTHINKINGofYOO.

2004-11-15T11:34:00.000+08:00

hey,
have u guys heard missy.e`s new song?
it`s awesomeee.
makes me wanna shake my boooo-tayeee! (:

sometimes i feel so neglected from life.

you just get sucked up in it all,

and then life leaves you with nothing.

and fyi,

if you`re not happy with what i write,

or use what i say here against me,

then just friggin dun waste ur time to even come here.

i mean, seriously.

gosh.

-.-

i`m talking to aaron.

yes, my best friend aaron.

meeting him later.

needta go shopping.

gonna have mucho divertido. (:

CYA PPL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

___stuckHEREonAsundayAFTERNOON.

2004-11-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

yes yes.
i`ve been totally MIA.
(:
sorrie to those of you who eagerly await my posts.
hurhur.
vanessa`s finally free.
and yes, the homework`s lurking around waiting for her.
these few days have been quite busy,
as in REALLIE busy.
spent time with aaron four days in row.
no, not you, aaron.
the aaron from singapore. (:
quite fun la.
and jon and val are up.
but they`re totally annoying me.
i`m pretty much alone now.
`rents sleeping.
val and jon are at church with gladys.
aaron went back to sg todae. ):
*sighhh-.
and le`en ditched me and went out to buy a game!
..so i`m all alone now.
wanted to go work on my tannlineee.
but it`s drizzling outside.
what a bad, bad day.
hmmphs.
i`ve been practically losing touch with everybody.
where`s my mandddaaa?
and paul?
and kane?
and james?
):
i miss you all.
i guess the only good thing that i`ve got left.
is that fact//
that i`ve found my
.___prince charming.
(:

x__.leftOUTinTHATdark//

2004-11-10T13:19:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i`m up already.
been watching mtv ever since.
i dun get lindsay lohan.
she`s such a slut now.
*shrugs-.
compare her wen she was a kid in parent trap.
and now.
she`s so..
different.
talking to le`en now.
todae`s such a boring day,
and aaron isn`t even up yett.
okae, now he is.
he just called.
meeting him and cheryl todae.
(:
have you guys watched the terminal?
heard it`s reallie good.
reallie wanna watch it.
i needta go suntanning.
okae, that was damn random.
but anywhooz.
i dun have much to sae.
just woke up anyways.
not too long ago.
gotta find smth nice to wear to becky`s sister`s wedding.
(:
i love you all, ppl.

.___aLILsmthFROMcookieDOUGH//

2004-11-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i`m back.
the new msn msnger is so awesome.
(:
yeah, anywayssss.
becky and i are kinda fighting.
lol.
nah, it`s nothing.
yeahyeah.
so tmr`s a holidae!.
is that cool or what.
holiday for a week man.
so i`m gonna go out with aaron and party. (:
LOL.
thanks aaron and cheryl for being there for me todae.
(:
and for bringing my bag to ms. malbogat`s office.
you guys are awesome,
i love you to bits.
i need a new bikini.
i want tha mambo one.
or tha aztec rose one,
but too bad msia doesn`t have aztec rose.
*poutss-.
semi formal`s coming up.
the twentieth.
awesome?
i know.
tell me about it.
i`m so darn excited man.
i got my gown.
and i`m gonna make appointments and all that.
*grins-.
hmmmssss.
how`s holidays so far, ppl?
i`m missing all of you in singapore,
i can`t wait see yall again.
mylinh, i miss you too.
you seem so..
far away.
i dunnoe.
*sighh-.
gawsh, life just sucks sometimes.
was called into ms. malbogat`s office todae.
to sort things out with grace.
did it work?
kinda. guess it did.
we kinda sorted things out.
aiight,
i`m gonna go.
all of you enjoy ur tuesday nite.
(:

.____andITZmeAGAIN//

2004-11-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

hey.
i dunnoe why.
but i just feel seriously queasy.
like.
i feel like smth bad`s gonna happen.
oh whatever.
okae ppls.
from now onwards,
vanessa`s officially on holiday.
head to tha salon, baby.
we all need pedi`s. (:
oh, and ppls.
i just got a new number.
msian line.
cuz i was screwing around with my pin and puk code thingy.
so here it is.
0122435068.
yeah.
brb.
i havta restart my comp. (:
cya.

*____cockroachesANDpals.

2004-11-08T17:57:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
i forgot smth.
at lunch todae.
it was so friggin hilarious.
there was a cockroach in one of the benches like,
close to us.
and we were like.
provoking it, rite?
like pouring juice and throwing food at it.
no one dared to go near it.
and then all of a sudden,
it just flared itz like frigging feelers at us.
and it started running or crawling, or whatever it does.
and we were all screaming and running like mad cows.
lol.
and then for some reason, it headed for aaron.
and he just like, stepped on it.
it was so friggin gross.
and then he like,
picked it up with a piece of paper,
and started chasing cheryl and i with it.
i swear, i was so fuh-riggin scared.
then naz and aaron took turns.
and aaron like, put his arms around me, and wudn`t let me go,
while naz was heading straight for me with the cockroach.
i was soooooo scaredddd.
i swear, i wud`ve like.
cried or smth.
i have this phobia.
of cockroaches.
ugh.
those skanks.
lol.
yup.
another story of my crazy best frens. (:
cya then.
bubye.

*._____xTHANKyouFORmakingMEtheCENTERofYOURattention//

2004-11-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

heyhey people.
it`s vanessa.
no, duh.
lol.
u`re on my page, fuhreako.
anyways.
school was pretty okay todae.
well, not reallie.
not last block.
aaron and i aren`t reallie on good terms,
and i bet he`s thinking it`s all my fault.
i`m sorrie, aaron.
but i just hate algebra, if you know what i mean.
i dun hate the subject,
i hate the class.
*shrugss-.
hope ya get me.
anyways.
sometimes i`m so happy i`ve got friends i can depend on.
you all know who you are.
so it doesn`t matter what ppl think, or say abt you, rite?
easier said.
cuz yeahhh.
words do hurt sometimes.
doesn`t it just get to you wen ppl hate you when they dun even know you?
or they hate and backstab you,
but they`re awfully nice to ur face?
i mean. seriously.
just get a life.
i did that in pre-school, you morons.
*rolls eyes-.
i mean, for all you ppl who have been gossiping,
thank you for making us the center of your attention.
(:
oh you freaking frogfaces,
doesn`t take a damn genius to figure out that i dun care abt
all u`re trying to do.
okae, enough.
this is all so petty.
ugh, whatever.
i SO can`t wait for tha one week hol.
muahahaha..
can`t wait to see becky all dressed up for her sister`s wedding.
talking to le-en now.
pretty fun. x)
oooohh!
went down to singapore over tha weekend.
saw jien arn.
well, walked past him.
in wisma. (:
he was starrringg at his reflection.
hurhur. x)
sorrie i din say hi.
ur hair looked nice though!
i got my prom dress.
got two gowns actually.
from daniel yam.
yayyyy!!! (:
can`t wait for semi-formal nite.
so damn excited.
okae. gotta write a testi for le-en now.
cya ppl.

.____wordsAREmyONLYsanity.

2004-11-05T17:58:00.000+08:00

i walk out, look around.
does anybody hear me?
i`m stuck in tha pit of my agony and disdain, i see no way out.
i`m sick of feeling all i do,
i`ve done the worst i`ve possibly could,
shoving it down as i move on,
i`m wishing my life away.
i look up at the now over-clouded sky,
as silently, a tear forms at the side of my eye.
i`m the girl kicking tha vending machine,
she`s got it all, or so it seems.
i`m playing with danger,
i`m flirting with grief,
the overloading of senses won`t seem to leave.
i`m screaming inwardly,
always pushed around,
i`ve walked into my own trap, i`ve already been bound.
like a despondent swan in tha midst of dark water,
i get up with the strength i have left, only to falter.
you don`t know what it`s like,
everything`s right for you, you`ve got it all.
i hate the way u make me feel so unaware, so small.
look beyond tha walls u`ve built,
look outside and see,
then maybe u wud just understand..
that there are some people like me.

*.___-feelLIKEyou`veBEENpushedAROUND+.

2004-11-05T17:25:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
it`s thundering so heavily outside.
like i mean.
raining so heavily,
and thundering reallie loud outside.
i`m not going for ryan`s party tonite.
do you know how lame that is?
i hate my parents.
they always do that to me.
they care for what`s important to them,
but not what`s important to me.
ugh.
i am so friggin pissed.
i`m gonna stop there.
bitching abt them can take tha whole day.
/:
and instead of ryan`s party?
i get to go for some crappy dinner.
like some formal dinner or smth.
itz so unfair.
i`m so sick of it.
i haven`t been talking to them since yesterday.
and that`s tha way it`s gonna stay.
life just sucks.
and i`m so sick of choking out frustrated tears
cuz i just.
aargh.
i`m just so friggin pissed off at them.
they NEVER understand.
i just asked them.
doesn`t take a damn genius to find out what their answer was.
confinement just brings retaliation, rite?
right.
i hate what i`m feeling inside now.
aarghhhH!~
i`m gonna go.
cya all.
enjoy ur friday nite while i spend mine
in the depths of boredom and agony.

*.______soTANGLEDupINme-+

2004-11-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

oooohhh.
i`m loving my new skin. (:
yes ppl, i`m up at NINEfortyFIVE
in tha morning.
and i`m alone at home.
dad`s at work.
mom`s out for coffee with some frens.
going out ta watch shark tale! later.
meeting josh first.
then nic, becky, john, shealin and amanda.
fun fun.
(:
aww, chrise, u wrote me a testi!
thankew thankew. (:
skipped school todae.
all thanks to mom.
dunnoe whether it`s a good or bad thing.
i missed the field trip,
but then she let me get outta tha house.
hmmms.
*shruggs-. whatever.
yeah. anywhoozaaaa. (:
i`m thinking of gettin hair extensions.
(:
yes, you heard rite.
oh, dayum.
i gotta go.
cyaaaa. (:

*__muhNEWskinn.

2004-11-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

hey.
just changed my skin.
hope u guys like it.
spent ages on it.
it looks simple,
but tha html code`s uber hard.
arrgh!
but everything`s where i want it to be now.
after like, two hours.
finally.
aiight.
talking to ryan now.
i`m off.
hope u guys enjoy.
the welcome to my life thingy?
wuz soooo hard to do.
-_-
aiight. i`m off.
lovies.

*.___no,YOUdunNOEwhatITZlike.

2004-11-03T18:41:00.001+08:00

heyhey.
i hope cheryl`s on my blog now.
muahahah.
took u ages to find it, huh?
u lil ditzy queen.
todae was a fun day.
dance was pretty much.
relaxing.
it wasn`t so stressful.
we were trying to make up our baroque age dance.
itz contemporary.
with call and response,
our new choreography technique.
kekeke..
(:
i must say that we din get very far, though.
but i guess ms. leeee-yonnggg x)
she left her mark.
if thatz how u put it.
she like.
opened my eyes to see stuff around, outside our highschool dance class.
to see what`s happening around,
and the reason why she`s so uptight sometimes.
we need to be tha best i can be.
so all the dancers, if u`re readin this.
we`ve gotta give it our best shot, yeahh.
we can do it! (:
okae, enough.
itz all so sentimental.
hurhur.
school was fun.
had asian studies todae.
mr. daley was in such a pissy mood man.
so was mr. gustavo.
he din let us go for the pep rally.
talk abt bad school spirit.
by the time we got to the gym,
we only had 30 seconds to sit,
before they were all dismissed.
aargh, that cow.
he was making us do all these lame conjugations for reflexive verbs.
*rolls eyes-.
pointless, totally pointless.
yep yep.
we`re going to watch shark tale tmr!
who has seen it?
itzzit good?
hoping it`s good.
it SEEMS quite good. (:
hurhur.
went to tha playground after school todae.
yes, the PLAYGROUND.
but it was pretty alright.
aaron was snapping away on his camera.
lik i`m some celebrity.
but of course, i am.
muahahaha. (:
kidding.
vicki got her job!
she said tha office was awesome.
am SO happy for my sister.
oh, and shealin,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!! (:
well, not much to sae.
cept mr tong loaded us with algebra hw.
thanks alot.
let`s hope i dun see him over tha weekend.
lol. (:
i guess i`m gonna pen off here.
love you all. (:

*.___no,YOUdunNOEwhatITZlike.

2004-11-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

*[[welcomeTOmyLIFE.____x

2004-11-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
nessa`s back.
still sick. );
this computer guy came to fix our computer today.
he looked like my science teacher.
like seeing him three times in school isn`t enough.
hurhur.
science was pretty fun todae.
quite confusing, quite stressful,
but.
it was still fun.
(:
dun think i blogged yesterday.
was probably too lazy to.
nothing eventful happened.
except for school.
going to sib for some briefing for the 'race' thingy on saturday.
and after supper with chris, josh, emilyn, shealin, blanche and some other couz ppl.
it was pretty cool.
we were taken to some unknown place,
and josh and i were like grumbling to ourselves.
okae, okae.
we were being pretty mean. and choosey.
however u spell that word.
lolx.
yeahh.
after that, chris dropped me home.
he walked me up as well.
that was pretty sweet.
(:
school today was pretty fun, i must say.
cheryl and i were like laughing non-stop at EVERYTHING.
we were seriously so HIGHHHH.
:D *grinnss-.
i love that girl.
and we were laughing so much at lunch as well.
and aaron brought his cam,
so we were like.
snapping away.
i gtg.
mom naggin.
ugh.
*rolls eyes-.
whateverrrr.
cya.

2004-10-29T16:51:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
rooaaarrr.
so pissed off rite now.
everytime i try to blog,
it doesn`t show up on my farrriigggiin bloggggg.
cuz there`s always some html code error thing.
omg.
and i freaking can`t stand those despos on friendster.
i mean,
those freaking frogfaces can just keep their hormones in check.
and for your info, their broken english statements just give me tha creeps.
try harder next time, u`re no shakespeare.
i mean,
can i date you out?
and ur my flower in the midst of winter?
oh puhhh-leeeeez you fuh-reekos.
rooaarr.
okae, enuff of those irritating frogfaces.
guess what, people?
halloween`s coming.
and i`ve been asked to go to this like, tour thing.
i mean, come on, a tour on halloween?
i am like, SO excited. -.-
they bring you to all these places that are known for like.
i dunnoe.
haunted stuff.
and u get this steamboat too.
oh wow.
not only do u get to scare yourself shitless,
you get to stuff your face too.
i was talkin to manda on tha phone for awhile last nite,
din getta talk as much as i wanted to cuz her bjorrrkk was thereeee.
but yeah.
i DO miss mandawanda alot.
(: thanks for tha testimonial.
i`m so pissed off at everything rite now.
okae, sorrie if this comes out uber random,
but i think chimps are cute.
baby chimps.
(:
i need a tan,
but thanks to all the disgusting germs in my body,
i can`t go anywhere.
like i reallie need this now.
i think i shall bug aaron on tha phone later.
he`s tha only one that can manage to make me laugh my bitchiness away.
or maybe i could call amanda again.
that is,
if she`s not with her bjork again.
oh mayuunn.
i feel so ditched.
i`m like,
the only girl in this whole planet who probably doesn`t have a
boyfriend.
yet.
oh, life is just so beautiful sometimes.
...not.
semi formal`s coming.
am actually pretty excited.
got my dress and everything already.
just need ta
accessorize accessorize accessorize.
aiight, i`m off.
):
i miss manda. and james. and paul. and kane. and baojun.
*sighh-.